spring day

J. H.

lately my life has felt like a spring day in california

the voices in my head resemble the birds that sing in the morning

they all have something different to say and it’s all at the same time 

and you never know where it’s coming from, the lyrics melding together

even the most beautiful songs get drowned out

lately my life has felt like a spring day in california

the weather can’t seem to decide what it wants to be

days may start with sunshine and end with flooded streets

even on the “nice” days, the sunlight burns my skin

the shade offers no sanctuary. in it, i feel like i’m going to freeze

and when it rains it seems as though it’ll never stop.

i feel like i’ll never get any reprieve from the storm that rages on

the wind pushes against me with more force than i have to fight back

my clothes remain soaked long after i find shelter

lately my life has felt like a spring day in california

the flowers are blooming in larger numbers than ever before

but the smells are too overwhelming, they follow me everywhere

their pollen fills the air, coating every car in orange dust

my nose is stuffed and my eyes itch when i dare leave my home

it’s hard, just to catch my breath 

lately my life has felt like a spring day in california

because everyone seems to love this time of year

they say it has perfect weather, perfect flowers, perfect everything

but i feel like it’s all moving on without me

the school year’s ending, graduation is too soon

everyone around me is drifting into summer with no problem

lately my life has felt like a spring day

but i’m still stuck in the fall